NO NEED TO READ THIS...just a part of my current feeling...

I thought that I’ve found someone that I can land my care, and my whatsoever things that can related to…but I was wrong (again)…why am I so stupid ha?…I just need someone that can makes me happy…can spending time together…share the sadness and happiness…but at now time…I feel like someone (or it can be ‘something’) had slap me and I just woke up from my long night sleep…I hope it was just a night mare…but when I open up my eyes…I still can feel the pain n see the ‘lebam’ after kene slap…I have to face the fact that I have to feel the sadness again until I don’t know when…why my life was so sucks?! am I have to give up?? Coz I am really really tired…god…please help me…what should I do to make my self peace…just move on with all these…or do something else?? But what was it?? I’m trying to find the happiness without pertolongan org laen…but always made mistake…kawan2…I miss u guys…korang je yg eja btol2 leh caye yg korang btul2 jujur utk wat eja hepi… harap2 x de sape bace blog ni…bkn x leh…but just mcm x perlu…sebab ni x de kaetan ngan idup orang laen…(kecuali lalo ade yg terase cm nak tau eja ni sape)…its just about me n my sucking life…drpd korang dgr crite rekaan pasal eja yg dicipta oleh mereka…baek korang bace blog ni utk kenal budak name eja nih…kan…humm…btol gak tuh!

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Or…(be back at the major story)

Roda idup eja da stuck…da x leh nak naek lg da...bile nak naek sket...die jatuh blk...n da x nak berputar lg??? Bcoz of that...eja akan rase hepi sket je...patu sedih blk...OMG...kalo cmtu...wat pe lg eja idup kalo setakat utk rase sedih je...useless la...kalo rase eja just nak keep on glooming pasal bnde2 ni...eja bukan ckp bnde yg same...tiap kali eja nak move on...eja akan dapat hasil yg same...sadness...this blog was only my place utk mngadu...eja da x nak susa kan sape2 utk dgr eja...(even eja sgt sgt memerlukan)...this blog was the only shoulder that i can land my tears...nnt da tue2 leh la mengenang balik zaman nak membesar mcm skrg...eja nak ingat setiap mase eja hepi n sedih...sebab eja nak sentiasa beringat...nnt kalo ade rezeki bile eja hepi...atleast eja x nak lupe diri...eja nak sentiasa bersedia untuk hadapi kesedihan...