dear god...

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....
dear god...please help me...pls make him feel what i feel...knows what was in my mind...u are only my hope...to help me...i've tried so hard to be a good girl...to everyone...because i want to be happy like other human being...i try to find my own happiness...i want to move on...i want to leave my sadness...saya x kan lupe diri kalau saye hepi...but please...give me some more chance to be happy...and to share my happiness with everyone...please god...after about 8 months...my life wheel is stuck at the down part...i hope there are some happiness waiting for me...ameeennnn...